I figured I would tag along for the ride, the laughs, and of course the memories. No memory I want to remember I thought. Not a word out of my mouth the entire night. Hanging out with a bunch of kids my age, younger, and older. 'Why is she even here?' was what runs through my mind all night. I at one point took upon myself to make a deal, a deal which included DONT EVER DO THIS AGAIN. Don't ever try this again cause you always end up crashing a burning. Only go for what you needed to do, what you had to do, and get the fuck out. I knew that I even warned myself. Don't say yes never say yes you end up in a whirl of shit and you have to float in it all night. I always end up regretting it. I have anxiety with people. Use to not be as bad. But now my mouth only opens when talked to. I find it very hard to live and deal with. No one understands that.
I was way out of my limit and comfort zone. My memories are all the same..... I don't have one to tell cause its just a piece of shit. Then you start to understand why your life is the way it is. You start to see it a little clearer.
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