I love this song "Adrift and at Peace" but I cannot say I feel that way. This sort of ties in with the last blog with detail and explanation to a degree.
When someone tells you about another persons interest you instantly become happy and excited for a new relationship, no matter the standards. You wait for him to come and say hi or even catch your eye. You try to be patient for them, until that night you just set yourself up for nothing. Oh, how I could tell you how many times that has happened. If need be I can just write my own love story from beginning to end. Yet it lacks love... So maybe a guide on depression.
I can tell you how to act in case you know that maybe its just not going to fucking happen.
I can tell you how much to drink and what to drink to make sure you don't remember anything yesterday. It's like a blackout.
I can tell you that this might just keep happening, until we grow some balls.
What I can't tell you, is if you might just get the guy. I can give you a percentage, but no satisfaction guaranteed.
It's been a LONG two days.
I hope the best for tomorrow. I hope the damn best for tomorrow.
1 comment:
thanks for your comment cuz. i really needed that. i'm realizing lately that i rely on other people to give me the faith in myself that i lack which just isn't healthy. this fear of being alone has got to stop. when i hear "you're only 25" i feel old at first, until i really THINK about it. oy. anyway, i can totally relate to this entry too. the meeting someone new, going right into relationship mode in your head. ugh. i wish we were both Adrift and at Peace!
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