I never wanted to get married, even as a child. My parents ruined a lot of normal things for me. Just recently though, I have been really wanting a steady relationship that would lead to marriage. I don't know what overcame me, but it's been a couple of months that I've been thinking about it. At the rate I am going it doesn't seem like my wish could come true.
On that subject (again) as if a sense for it, I keep seeing myself with no one in the future. I keep just seeing myself all alone, its frustrating. But lately I have also been rebelling like no fucking other. I'm about to get a full calf tattoo, shaved the side of my head, piercing more holes in my ear then needed (doing it myself as well.) I don't think rebelling is really the word, but going through a weird stage, I feel like I'm 16. Pre-midlife crisis?
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It's funny cause I never wanted to get married either. I never dreamt of it, planned it out as a little girl. What I did want though was a man. That was definite from the time I could say the stupid word. Anyway, it's annoying to admit but I think we're all born with the innate want to be in a relationship and maybe even get married. It just comes out at different times in all of us. And "at the rate you're going?" You've got plenty of time! I know I should take my own advice there. I totally understand the alone thing too. I've had a guy now but still in the future, I can't even wrap my head around there being someone next to me. I see myself alone too cause it's all I really know. I def want to see pics of this tattoo too whenever ya get it!
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