I just took that bullet.

To feel embarrassed beyond belief, to feel like I wasted my time beyond failure, and to make me cry when these tears shouldn't even be for you, makes me ill. Makes me wake the fuck up all over again. Constant pull and tug with you, WHAT was your point with me? You tired to fuck me, but didn't have the courage to make a move, just ask and ask and ask about where, when, how, and why? I'm glad I was smart enough to push you away. Now be smart enough to stay the fuck away from me.